You're NOT an idiot.

Trusting someone with our most private thoughts is one of the hardest things about therapy. I'm amazed and a little jealous that you were able to build such trust in just a few short months. It's taken me almost 2 years! As I told my T today, "you haven't given me any reason not to trust you." I'd wager your T hasn't given you any reason not to trust her either.