See, Bipolar is so different for each person. I've never been psychotic, never experienced the "happy" manias, never been extremely angry (due to mania....perhaps due to something that ticked me off, yes!). That's why I never really thought I was Bipolar until someone clued me in on the impulsive stuff.

In fact, the only times I have truly been "manic" by definition were triggered by antidepressants (because the docs didn't think I was Bipolar either).

Yet every time I get a little off, the answer is more meds, more meds, more meds. But what if it's not the Bipolar? Meds do nothing for Borderline. All they do is turn me into a zombie with no feeling, good or bad.

I just need to figure out how to explain this to the next person so they will actually listen to me.