Zoo - your life DOES sound very very difficult. I don't know how many of us would be able to cope with those stresses well.

You are reaching out now for help and your T is there to help you. Use her as much as possible. I'm sure she has many wonderful suggestions on how to keep on keeping on.

Don't give up. I know that sometimes when it's the darkest, it's just before the light.

Use the skills your T has already given you to cope. Try to remember what those are. Share them with us on T and we'll encourage you to follow those coping mechanisms.

Keep talking with us.