I do remember getting angry after my BIG confession in December. I wrote her a letter and had her read it in my session. I basically told her how STUPID I felt having a melt down in her office.

I said something to the effect, "I am just another client to you. You have no emotions about me at all and would not be upset one bit if I never came back. Why did I even come here? How is this helping me when I am hurting so much? I hate doing this and I may never be back again!"

Of course she went into the speech about how exploring our emotions and facing our fears is going to make me a healthier person. How normal I was to be going through the emotions about NOT wanting to tell her things. She talked about how confusing it was to share your most personal issues with someone you really know nothing about. That it was normal to be angry at her and not like her at times. And she clarified that she would care if I chose to stop therapy at such a critical time.

Since then, I have told her a number of times that I was upset with her. In fact, right now she knows that I am. I am sick to death of her giving me the assignment of learning how to FORGIVE myself. I told her last time when she gave it to me: YOU HAVE ALREADY GIVEN THAT TO ME A HALF DOZEN TIMES!!

Her response: "You are getting it again." I wanted to slap her and she knew it. She later wrote me in an email that she knew I was upset with her, but it was her job to make me face the hard stuff. She said that until I was ready to truly forgive myself for things in my past, I would not be able to achieve the successful future that I have written as one of my goals.

Getting angry is normal. I do that about every other session. I also say I am QUITTING just about every session! After a day or so, I am frantically counting down the days until I will see here again. This is what I call "INSANITY"!!

My advice to you is "This too shall pass." You will be back in her office getting another dose of therapy and the cycle will begin all over again. I think you will be more unhappy if you stop, than if you continue to work on yourself.