((((((((((Rainbow))))))))))

I actually thought about this very thing today...what if something happens to T and he dies and I never see him again? Ugh.

What I did do was to make sure I said the things I would want him to know...that I am grateful for him, and that I love him, and that he has made such a huge difference in my life that there aren't even words for it. And knowing that I said those things gave me a little peace.

I used to worry about that before T vacations too, and honestly, when he goes out of town, I do what I did today...I think about what I want to make sure I've told him, and I tell him.

Of course if your T (or mine, or anyone for that matter!) dies, it would be an unbelievably horrible thing. I do try to remember that no matter how much I worry, I can't change what happens, and I try to let it go and be mindful about the moment I'm in. And if the fear floats back in, I just do it again (and again and again).

I'm sorry it feels so scary. I hope the EMDR helps