Darla get your fanny to AA. Do it before this disease KILLS YOU. Do you know how many young people have died from alcohol poisoning?? Too darned many!!! Please -- this is ruining your life -- don't keep drinking until you're REALLY in trouble. Get some help thru AA. They will help you thru this -- they saved my life. And they can save yours too, IF you are willing to go to any lengths to stay sober!! You have to do some of the work too! You've got to be willing.
Please -- call them -- talk to somebody at AA. I promise that you won't regret it. God bless. Hugs, Lee