I'm afraid of dying like anyone else, but I'm not afraid to talk about death at all, either on this forum or in therapy. Or anywhere else in between. I guess it's because I'm desensitized to it...I have experienced a ton of losses in the past 10 years or so. This sounds harsh, but the only thing I can say to possibly help you is that any of us could go at any time. I try to think about all the people I'm acquainted with as much as I can, so I don't take any of them for granted.

Personally, I would be absolutely devastated if anything happened to my T. But I would be grateful that such a person ever came into my life at all to begin with.

I'm glad your T can handle you talking about your very real fears of losing her!