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Originally Posted by zooropa
so, tonight I got an eviction notice. Then my phone got shut off. I don't even KNOW. I had a little while there when I was done. DONE DONE DONE. But I thought of leaving my kids with just their dad. I can't do that to them.
I also came very, very close to SI. I called my T but she didn't call me back and I had a feeling she wouldn't until morning (this was shortly before 9pm, and when I called her at that time last night she didn't answer but called this morning and said she was asleep at 9.) So then I really spiraled out, because I needed to talk to her about SI. I thought about sending her a 911 text, but then I was too tired to move and I fell asleep for an hour or so. When I woke up, I didn't feel like SI any more.
Anyway. That was my night. Thank you all for your messages and for being here. I need to surround myself with people right now, I can't get through this on my own.
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Zoo - I know that an eviction notice cannot throw you out immediately. The courts take weeks and weeks usually to process that so you will have time to regroup and find your way.
Resist resist resist SI. Even though your children are problematic for you, they still need you and you have a huge influence on them. Somehow, dig deep and find the strength to be there for them. Try to remember them as babies that need your care and tenderness. And see yourself in the same light. YOU need care and tenderness. The outside problems (housing, etc.) will be resolved. You must have access to social services where you live. Get practical help also. You can do it!!!!!