Can I just give up - trying to figure this out? What if things are such a mess I can't find a balance, anywhere...what if everything has worn me down to a point that I can't get going?

I really do not know what to do....

I am serious.

I feel agitated, not panicky, totally lonely (due to having no friends here)...all contact is over the phone.

I cry at night, I wake up crying....I don't react well to SSRI's. That is not an option.

I am really at a loss. Stress used to bounced off of me, and now it does not.

I feel lost, disconnected, confused.

I had about 2 weeks where I got a lift.

It's gone.

I liked my therapist for the first month. Now I don't.

She says I am resisting.

1-Can't change where I live
2-Can't ever go "home" again
3-Can't erase court

What am I supposed to do?

I went out to lunch and some jerk made a comment like "Go keep up that busy schedule"...in one of the "local" restaurants. Bec. he knows I can't work.

No one in my hometown would have dared speak to me like that.

Depressed, sick, whatever. Because they knew me for 23 years.

I was treated w/respect, like a person, no matter what.