I know how you feel. I had a similar situation, not with email but with an actual session. The first T I saw in town was the only psychologist in town. I was happy to get in with a psychologist and not just a therapist.

I do have some sexual..."issues"...basically really stupid crap I did that can be explained by either mania or the borderline. But he kept asking VERY DETAILED questions about my sex life, I mean extremely detailed. I won't go into it because it might trigger. But he just kept asking and asking and asking even when I said I didn't want to answer. This was only our 2nd session.

It was a 5:00 appointment so when I left, the elevators were not running (they have elevator operators, really old building). I went down the stair well and all I could think was that this sick-o psychologist was going to follow me and rape me in the stairwell.

That's where my mind went. But was he really a perv? Maybe not. Maybe this was just his way of figuring out why I did what I did, so he could help me stop. I don't know.

All I know is I never went back again. Trouble is he works in the same office building as my former pnurse and now my new therapist, so I run into him occasionally. Sucks.

Anyway....like others said, your T could be innocent, and there could be a very rational explanation for all of this. When my email got hacked it was sending messages to the entire universe. I had to shut down my email address to stop it.

But if you will always be thinking "my T is a perv" no matter what, then it may not work out for you.