Why? Is it because you are angry with her?

I have sometimes felt that way too. Why don't they tell us at the outset?! I don't think they should prevent us, but at least tell how it is, so we can make a choice? Maybe therapy wouldn't work if they explained it all? I've thought too that if at the first session they explained about how in therapy you will have this close relationship with the therapist, that you will come to feel very close to him, and that through this, you will heal, blah blah, I would probably look at the T sideways, and be thinking inside, "hmmm, think highly of yourself, don't you?" Like how could they sit there and say, in a few month's time you and I will be stuck together like glue? And not all clients form a close bond with their therapist, so they couldn't say that truthfully to everyone. Some clients do very good work at a distance. At a very early session with my T (one of the first 3?), I told him a dream I had and we both were in it. He suggested this dream meant I wanted love from him, whereas I had a different interpretation. At the time, I thought he was so ballsy to suggest I wanted love from him. Like, where would he get such a strange idea?? So maybe he tried to tell me (warn me?) early on, but I didn't hear it?

(((Suratji))) That is so poignant that this is what you want your T to say to you. I hope you will share this with your T. This is not what they do, BTW (but I am sure you have figured this out!). Recently, I wanted my T to provide me with some tools/skills to help me get through some situations that were proving very hard for me, and that would make me cry, out there in the real world. He would have none of this goal of teaching me to hide my feelings! He thought it was perfectly fine that I was crying (in front of people!) this way. Sometimes, they have different ideas and goals for us than we have for ourselves. In cases like this, I just kind of try to trust him, that he knows better than I what is healthy for me and my growth/development.

Good luck today.