I know I rant alot. But, I want to rant and I don't want to pester anybody. So I will rant in a way where the readers can choose to ignore me if they are not in the mood.
I started thinking about my odd dependence on this near stranger that I have only talked to three times. At first, I needed her to soothe my worries like a parent would do with a child sometimes. Now, I feel like I just need her to encourage me to believe that it is possible to change my negative thinking. I seem to stop believing it is not possible until she reminds me that it is. Why is that? I don't want to become dependent on someone else for psychological needs. It scares me. I feel like I am not in control when I need someone else especially when it comes to an emotional/psychological need. grrrr!
On the mental health insurance, I called my EAP today to see what the co-pay is. Every time I go in I get rather confusing responses from the receptionists on what my co-pay. While on the phone, she stated that the counselor needs to certify for the next sessions. (I am guessing this means ask them for permission to meet again) Since this was supposed to be done after the second visit, I am not sure what this means. I left a message and will mention it in our next session. I am wondering if she did and they just didn't see the file. My EAP gave me a startle. She couldn't even find my file at first. She had to repeatedly try. I made a joke about me being lost. She made a comment that she thought momentarily that she was going crazy because she remembered talking to me. I felt the need to say that noone is going crazy not you or me.
Why is a person's medical insurance different than their mental health insurance? Why does someone have to get permission to talk to a counselor from their EAP before talking to one or get fined? Could you imagine me having to set there and describe my symptoms over the phone before I can talk to my regular doctor? I can't. So why do I have to in the mental health area? I tend to feel that I want to be more private about mental health matters than medical health. But, maybe thats because I usually get a "You are normal" letter in the mail from my doctor. My health insurance has a card that has the co-pay information and tells you things on a yearly basis. I didn't hardly know what my mental health benefits are without the EAP having to tell me. My counselor's agency have been told that she is in network and outside of network. Apparently, if you look her up on the website in one way, you can find her as a provider. If you look her up another way, she doesn't come up. What are some of your experiences with your mental health insurance? EAP? I got a slight headache from talking to them.