Wow, that's terrible and inhumane for someone to tell an other that it's weak to try to get help for an addiction. And I hate to admit my parents are addicted, but they very much are. My father has "recovered" so many times but every time something really stressful and painful happens, he turns back to the alcohol.

I'm trying to stay sober again, I'm getting really shaky and my bones are aching uuuugh. So I'm going to do what you said and call the AA hotline and see if someone could get me a ride. It's going to be difficult when the only real support I have is my boyfriend.

Why did I allow myself to get this bad? I was so stupid back when I was 15...I graduated high school and decided I didn't want to go to college...only because I had connections where I already was and was too much of a weakling to go without drugs. They really messed up my life. I was living on my own and now I'm 20 and back living with my drunk parents. I NEED TO GET SOBER because I'm finally going to college this August. I won't be able to do it if I'm going through withdrawals then, or worse, using while at school.

Sorry for the long reply, have a lot on my mind.