(((violetdazzle))) you have a lot on your plate. It might not just be your aunt that you are grieving, but the other people you've lost recently and the thought of losing your mother - just a thought. It is never easy to lose someone. Don't be too hard on yourself. Everyone goes through the grieving process differently. Allow yourself to grieve.

If you need to talk, PM me. Please keep posting it may help to talk about it. Gentle hugs to you.