We are here for you carrie-19! You can always vent. I was given a suggestion from a T for "venting" each day. She told me to jog in place really hard. Get your heart rate up for a full 5 minutes. During that period of time, scream out loud or to yourself, but dig deep down for the pain and work it out of your system. Once the 5 minutes is over, do stomach breathing. Take as much air in as you can and then blow out all the air inside you. I like this part better and I like to think all my anxiety and stress is going out of my body.

That might work, might not, but worth a try. Be careful. Don't accidentally hurt yourself too bad or go further. Just come here if you need to. Hope you feel better!