He emailed me back and gave me some advice.

I am noticing that my thoughts are turning toward paranoia more and more. It was bothering me while I was in the car driving to get my son from school today. There were people driving behind me and I thought that they were following me. Also, I was driving fast and wondering if a police officer would pull me over. I saw someone else getting a ticket and I almost felt jealous. The thought, "Why didn't he pick me?" went through my head. I was getting mad at people who were driving the speed limit because they were in front of me and blocking me from going fast. I live so dangerously, don't I, ha ha.

I am not planning on telling my husband about this because he is under enough pressure and thinks I am doing well right now. I will fake it with him for as long as I can.