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Originally Posted by Fading
Thank you for these replys! 
It's encouraging to read other's views and knowing I'm not the 'only one'...
I guess the main reason I'm feeling 'overwhelmed' is because my pain Dr doesn't seem to really 'recognize' RSD and what it's like to live with on a daily basis. ...... seems a bit 'odd' however, that he knew ALL about it BEFORE I agreed to get a very high-priced spinal cord stimulator implanted. Now that he's collected his big chunk of change, it's almost as tho I'm of no use to him anymore.......that I'm 'needy'.....
I feel a sense of betrayal to be quite honest.
From his standpoint, he thinks I take pain meds to help 'cheer me up'  yeah, those were basically his words.
He is very arrogant. It's such a humiliating place to be in - to be made to feel like I'm such a lowlife. He's the kind of guy that will take your high dollar procedures, yet when it comes to the ongoing follow thru care, he'd just assume put a 'label' on my chart - that I have a 'conversion disorder' or something! And for the sake of technality, that was ruled out in the 'psyche eval' I had to take prior to my SCS implant. The eval was necessary to get insurance approval.
I wish I could just switch gears and get another doctor, but it's not that easy. I live in a rural area for one thing.
Anyway, I do appreciate your feedback....... I thought I sent a post last night, but either I forgot to click the 'submit post' button...  or maybe my post hasn't come thru yet since I'm a new member.
Thank you for your support....I really appreciate hearing others share their experiences with chronic pain psychiatrists....
Fading.....
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Fading,
God, if I could just write down once the he-- my "pain specialist" has put me through, the number of times he's treated me like a drug-seeker and a head case, I would...and then just copy/paste it to my reply.
Unfortunately, what you're experiencing is normal. It's also due in large part to an equally large ego: his. Because you are sill in pain, he takes it that you imply failure (however true it may or may not be) on his part, and a bit of news about doctors, hon--they do not take failure-implied or otherwise, well at all. And pain doctors are even worse. You could have done everything right, and responded perfectly to treatment, and he'd still be labeling you a "crazy." Jerk-off's like that have no business in medicine-and that's what they do-one, they see it as business, not a "caring profession," as it once was, and second, they are doing just that
: practicing medicine. It makes me sick.
Yup, you guessed it: I am also a crazy woman who just would prefer to sit at home, getting "high" and taking pain meds to numb out, and "cheer up." But if the stupid ******* had to walk to
my mailbox in my slippers, he'd be screaming for mercy. And you bet I'd be there, and I'd dangle the prescription pad over his face while he's screaming for morphine and diladud, and tell him to go straight to the nearest Rite Aid and buy an ice pack and some Tylenol.
Sound vindictive? Like I have a chip on my shoulder? You betcha! I am 36 and have suffered from some form of chronic intractable pain since I was about 7 or 8. Yeah, I guess this many years of it has made me a bit jaded.
Keep looking though, but a word of caution: when you come across a free-standing, privately-run "pain doctor" run (limp) as fast as you can away from them: all they want to do is give you a bunch of drugs, shove a stimulator in you or put steroids in your back/joints, and then withdrawal all drugs, because then you're cured! Stick with a hospital system, but just be wary of "teaching hospitals," unless you like the feeling of a trapped lab rat.
Sorry I can't give you a better picture, and that I am not famous for sugar coating it. It's a rotten situation, but know you are not alone. And really, as long as he signs the prescription, and has no reason that you give him to stop, who cares what he thinks
about why you take them? Go through the motions, and do what you have to in order to survive.
I am sorry you didn't have better luck...
But keep your chin up--you amongst good company!
