Kaitlin: There is something about "the act of writing" . . . isn't there. It sounds like for it to work for you, your writing has to be to a specific someone who has a particular grasp of your situation. (I hope I've understood.) I'm glad that your favorite support person did not want you to be hurting badly. And so, between yourselves, you came up with an inventive compromise. Also, I hope you can feel better in spirit and in body.

I hear what you're saying about not wanting to be scolded and about how there can be a lack of value in calling the crisis hotline.