I post on forums, people mess with my head and good nature for what?

My friends implicate and allude insults of me into their conversations, when I think I'll catch them in the middle of one, they say "oh we're not saying anything" and I get laughed at. I've been called "those two guys" you know horrible things relating to my illness.

The only resort I have besides %#@&#! off is using my past as an excuse to end the harassment, i've been physically and emotionally abused heavily throughout ages 6 and 8 by my father. As was my mum whose legs were just so bruised...

My friend I met online goes through way too much abuse to even have me complain, her "friends" emotionally abuse her, her dad has sexually abused her, I got her not to cut herself anymore and we're in love, yet she's so far away. Today she spoke of voices making fun of her near her ear and her behaviour is quite out of character, I cannot even try to reassure her without coming off as superficial. I am worried, so worried and it's just not right. We plan this future together to somehow resort to a fantasy land in order to compensate for what's happened.

How the hell does one combat abuse? I mean I went to another forum called recoveryourlife and I just got rejected there too. I post at other places and people are just insensititve to the next who says they've problems.

I look around here and wish I could help. I hate it. and I am not a hater.