tHANKS daVEY........... i cant see struggling and struggling for much longer.............. But then what else is there? I wonder why I cant just DECIDE to do something to either make a change or get on with doing something, anything that would at least do SOMEONE some good..........In an entire day I'm LUCKY if I jsut get by getting the most basic things done and people congratulate me for THAT? How much more of a useless piece of nothing can I possibly feel like? trust me, i dont think i could feel more useless even to my own self.........