You know if I took care of the kids and my husband then it would all probably be better,I would probably not be on the outs with them, if I don't pull it together I am gonna be of the homeless,no person should ever have to sacrifice their health for another and my husband has been doing that for a long time and is sick of it.he is now doing many of the things he feels I did wrong to him to me to teach me a lesson all it is doing is getting me mad. He can't understand how I don't think things throughhow I continue to say stupid things without thinking,how I start things and don't finish them or just never get them started,he believes that I "use" my "illness" as a "crutch" so I can get away with. "Abusing" him I lose my temper often I yell but I am really working on this and since I have gotten some control of this I feel like he is sometimes intentionally baiting me by saying things he knows will get a rise out of memost of the time I fall for it before I realize what I am doing (hence the talking without thinking) he set me up for an intake meeting to start counseling he found some that have a great sliding scale,so I am sure he really wants me to get better,just aggrevates me which is not hard. Oh welll grrrrr.