I had an amazing cry session last night. Has anyone ever had that? I was with a small group of people that I trust...and somehow some sensitive topics came up and I shared things that brought me to tears---that were very emotional. It was like this wall that had been up for a long time finally broke....and all of these tears and emotions came pouring out.
I'm slightly embarrassed about it. I mean, who likes to cry uncontrollably in front of other people? And then even after I left the gathering...on my way home and when I got home I was still crying.
But at least I was feeling something. Half of the time lately I seem to go through my life completely numbed out. So last night---I was able to actually feel some of that pain.
Thanks for listening.
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