I'm feeling suicidal again and I'm scared of what I might do within the upcoming weeks (or even days). Last week I sent my best friend a text message and begged her to not judge me harshly if this illness caused my death. She asked me why I want to kill myself and I had no answer to give. I have several reasons for being alive though, but it's like I can't see them. I just hate myself and my life and my mind and this f***ing mental disorder! 
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"Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win." ~Stephen King
Dx Bipolar II
Med-free for the time being
Last edited by wanttoheal; Mar 26, 2011 at 11:39 AM.
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