Welcome to PC ! You can count on suppport and folks who will gladly "listen". You mention taking Xanax - but that the withdrawal is anxiety provoking - do you mean between doses, like when it loses its affect on you? The half life of Xanax is only 4 hours, therefore after 4 hours, you start losing the good effects of it. Perhaps you would benefit from a longer acting benzo such as Klonopin. When I had panic disorder - I didnt eat either, and dropped just about the same weight you have. My blood pressure was very low, had no energy, etc etc. Once I got my panic and anxiety under control, on the right medication, and had invo therapy - I was able to eat again. (Now I eat too much of course!) I have been panic and anxiety free for 16 years in February, but I remember how horrible it was like it was yesterday.

I am sorry you feel embarrassed and ashamed that you are ill - would you feel the same if you were battling diabetes? You have an illness - not by choice, and IMHO, there is no need to be embarrased !

Please post whenever you need too - and PM me anytime. There IS life after panic !