(8) Some days I feel like ****, some days I wanna quit and just feel normal for a bit (8). This would be so relevant if i knew what normal is.

I just want to cry....cry for my numbness and occasional sadness.

The other day we went back to school p.e. type lesson and picked groups...i was last to be picked, and then only was because i had to be (expected, but still a downer).

I want help...anyone know how to tell friends of depression (or suspected), without showing self harm scars because the only person to know about them hates me. I WANT HELP.

I think i'm seeing the college counciller on thurs, which makes me nervous, but also calm because i cantell her stuff....al;though, what if i say that i want to be gone from this world?? will she send me to a mental hospital??

Either way, i'll find out on thurs, and update this tomorrow, when i more know myself... Love You All! You're all worth everything, you Wonderful people! xxx