Bighoss Welome to PC.

NO, you are not crazy and your not going crazy.

I have OCD, like you, I had terrible thoughts of hurting my youngest child which devistated me as a parent and it brought feelings of shame and guilt. I couldnt even look into his eyes for a long time.

Coupled with my OCD I also suffer from depression and Anxiety so I did see a T for several months and began taking medication that greatly reduced the symptoms.

I am not suggesting that medication is the only answer though. I would start by seeing a T for a proper DX first. After that talking with your T would be very benificial. Also know that these thoughts you are having are common in people with OCD. I know the agony you are going through.

I wish you luck with this. Please keep is posted