i was diagnosed bipolar about 4 weeks ago after being depressed, borderline, ptsd, ocd. ive been seeing therapists for 10 years and searching for the right meds just as long.

its been a rough four weeks i kinda always though i might be bipolar but have been in denial. more afraid of the stigma than of the disorder. what does it mean? for me? for my soon to be 7 year old son? for my family?

im scared of myself. not of harming others or myself but of not having control of my emotions. of the surges of happiness and depression, of my reactions to it.

i came here to find solutions as im feeling a bit pro-active today. if not solutions maybe reassurances or answers....something...

i hope to get the help i need and to be of some help to others.

thank you for this opportunity

bellearachne