You do sound like you have a lot of strengths. I am sorry that you are in such a tight spot Velcro. It can be hard to know who to turn to for support.

I know you didn't ask, but I'm just going to share a little tip that has helped me a lot. If someone at work asks how I'm doing, I say "great." It is always always always better not to share personal details. It can be confusing getting negative or rejecting responses from people who have power over your life. Imho it is better to save that stuff for loved ones, therapists, and others, where you will NOT be judged or be made to feel childish for asking for what you want. It is a process learning who to open up to, and I wish you lots of luck and I hope you can forgive yourself too!

I'm sorry your T made you feel bad. Perhaps she is frustrated seeing you hurting and unable to fix it.