nannypat, thank you for your post. I'm sorry you go through the same as me. Do you also worry each week? I try to control myself and not think about it, but my sessions means so much to me, and my T is so important, that I can't help but worry that something will happen to her in between sessions. It's an ongoing feeling that I try to accept, but underneath it is knowing that I'm not in control of the world. Bad things can happen to anyone at any time and I just have to accept that's the way life is. What does your T say to help you?