You're not being silly..we all need friends. The more you have, the less dependent you'll feel. I'm not good at making friends..I have very few (social anxiety) so I have to be very careful not to lean on them too much. When people sense neediness, they tend to intentionally/unintentionally exploit it..So you never get to know the real them and they never get to know the real you. This habit takes practice to correct. Don't be too hard on yourself, ok?