I can't be much help to you right now...just want to let you know I'm in the same mindset. Considering/planning the same thing. For basically the same reasons, just with different disorders. I know how you feel, dunno if that means anything. Try to get help...I've tried, I just don't know that I can be helped...feels like too little, too late...Take care. Please, try to be happy. If you can find just one thing that makes you happy...cling to it like there's no tomorrow. It's rare in our world.