We could spend each hour of the day trying to figure out "Why???"
Why me, why now, why did god allow this, why aren't I feeling better, why isn't my head thinking more clearer, why aren't the meds seeming to work, why doesnt any care, why doesnt anyone understand me....and so forth...
I have come to learn that the reason behind the "WHY??" isn't as important as the determination I need to just get better and stay better.

So sorry you are going through this phase of "why?" and really feeling low.
Please talk to us. What is your biggest "why?" Let us help you...Let us give you our experiences on the same matter. We care!