thank you survivor. i will seek help from a therapist when i can. i cannot afford it finacially right now and also can't leave my mom alone at this point. but just talking about it makes me feel better. maybe when my mom finishes this course of radiation and chemotherapy and gains some of her strength back i can leave her long enough to make it to an appontment to see a therapist. but i would have to b able to afford it as well. as it is now i have a stack of unpaid medical bills. and not being able to pay im sure they wouldn't take me. just getting it out even in this small way has relieved me. thanks for being there.
mystie