Bighoss, you are not crazy. Losing your dog, of 17 years and then your best friend's dad is a huge blow!! Huge!! Your feelings may be irrational (thoughts) but it has something to do with your losses.

Please see a therapist, asap, and talk this out.

When my dog, of 15 years, died, I did tons of irrational things and couldn't sleep and was obsessive about everything around me. I was scared to death that I was going to lose a family member (another family member, as he was definitely that) and it took quite awhile to work through it.

In the meantime, today, google pet loss sites and find a place that has a message board. It helped me tremendously. Also, please feel free to PM me. I work from 1-9 today but am home all weekend. I'll try to help you.

xoxoxo pat