thank u i can sit for hours staring out the window no tv radio no noise i can lay in bed the same way but the voices in my head are never quiet like today for example i been staring out the window at the rain wishing somehow i could just stand in the middle of the storm and get struck by lightning only in hopes it would fry my brain and i wouldnt hear another voice again it just feels hopeless i love to cook but half the time i wont even eat and if i do eat i want to binge then purge i hate myself so much and yet feel powerless to change it because i have to many living inside me i cant fix