grrr! You reminded me something amandalouise -

When i was young i had a bad knee injury. I was 6 years old. And i remember clearly how my knee began to hurt but i had no real clear memory of hitting it or anything happening to cause it. I assumed quietly to myself that i hit my leg somehow - i told my parents I hit it...I didn`t even say...I remember it was a bad injury and i was taken to the ER in the evening. I couldn`t walk normally for quite a while....

Alter confessed that they liked to hurt the body out of anger of the S.A abuse trauma - but they didn`t feel like taking the pain of self injury as well as the pain of the abuse. So the pain of self injury went to me.

lol!