Determining where the pain is coming from has never been a big mystery for me... its the "how to resolve" that I have not been able to accomplish.
I have always been pretty able to identify the problem -my struggle comes in getting from point a to point b... it is as though I am stuck -my feet are cemented... is it because I am unwilling to change/move/grow? There is some sort of block keeping me from getting past this.
A huge part of me wants to conquer and move on, another part of me is afraid to let go maybe.. i dont know. I cannot find any answers make any sense of it at this time. I am sick to death of feeling desperate and afraid. I am even sicker of this lonliness that consumes me.
Its self inflicted.
Its sick.
How do I change.