Tao ... YOu'e in a really tough situation........ Can you attend a junior college or some other kind of educational program and why wont your college let you come back? Do you enjoy school? Would you rather get a part time job somewhere for a minute just to make some extra money? How old R U ? Do call the helpline.......... If you want to talk on the phone we could do that too. I dont know what I could do to help excpet commiserate with you as I have a depression that is seemingly untreatable.......I dont know how to send a PM yet but send me one......... I'll figure it out...... I feel for you and I know what you're feeling too........I've been there, am there, and have been free from that place too..........Sitting around in your parents house is not a good idea... Go for a walk. go to the park....... go out to a coffee house and have a sweet hot drink with whipped cream all over it...... Where do you live?