You are so welcome! I hope I can be helpful in some way to you. I'm not sure if you are aware of this or not, but there are many places that offer counseling on a sliding pay scale. I went to one once at a church and they were very happy to work with me for what I could afford. There are others, you would need to check what is available in your community (it's not just churches).

Do you have a support network of friends or family you talk to, or do you kind of just keep things to yourself?