I'm really sorry to hear about your friendship troubles. I was very interested in your story because I've gone through something similar. I can also relate to your history of hiding emotions, and being hesitant to trust people.

In my opinion, from experiences of trying to work through problems, there are some friendship issues that can't be resolved. I honestly feel like, at this point, your guys' relationship is probably over. There may be hope that you could re-establish contact in the future when you've both had time to fully move on and reflect on the situation. But I feel like that is something that may take time. I really think the best thing to do is just let the situation cool down.

Understand that you are a great, caring person regardless of whether or not she wants to remain friends with you.