Have you tried writing your parents a letter? I'm sure they want to know what is going on with you so they can help you. It's hard for parents to always know the right thing to do, but it sounds like they are trying. Maybe if you are honest with them about what you need and what you want, they will be receptive. They are probably worried about you and not quite sure what to do. I've been looking for that magic wand for a long time....it sure would be nice, unfortunately the only way to get better it through a lot of hard work. Good Luck at your CBT session - do you want a pocket rider?