I feel so so depressed today, I can't even muster a small smile. I'm not sure why I'm so depressed today. I feel very numb. I haven't had a shower in 3 days, and not sure why. Well the obvious, but I just feel like it's fine. I'm just so lonely today. Raining and windy outside. I just turned on pandora radio, and tuned to my Lifting Spirits station, hoping this will help. Music, usually helps, but sometimes it doesn't either.