hi, i'm new in here and this is my first post, don't even know if i'm doing it right. i am 68 and have had probs my whole life with focus, concentration, balance. as a result i get very frustrated and anxious. i suffer with panic and anx disorder, depression and embarrassed about how i can't follow conversations sometimes, if people talk too long, i have trouble following what they are saying and i will ask innapropiate questions that they can't seem to understand what i am asking. i guess i mean to say i don't communicate well. people have told me i'm not listening, i'm rude for interrupting them, but if i don't interrupt i will lose my thought. i'm not aware at the time of my behavior and then later looking back i get embarrassed and regret looking stupid. sometimes when i speak out inappropriately i feel i may have made myself look stupid or may have offended someone with what i think is humor. i always look back in regret. i'm now realizing that i push people away from me and stay home more than go out, it's safe at home. i have been losing friends and family members, i'm realizing people don't seem to want me around, i think i stress them out or i don't always make sense to them so now that i am aware of this i am afraid to make new friends, i feel why bother, u won't have them very long. it's getting pretty boring and lonely staying home so much. i do have friends, don't get me wrong, but i notice i keep pushing them away and cutting them off, this is happening more and more and i don't know how to change things. i think i was diagnosed with add or adhd, a long time ago but at that time i didn't understand it and didn't accept it. i don't like taking any kind of medication so i don't take it but i now realize i need some help if i am ever to live any kind of fulfilling, happy life. i would like to find a support group and attend, does anyone know of any in the san fernando valley???