NIGHTLY THOUGHTS - WHAT DO you all THINK....

While I know my husband LOVES ME (and is sorry for the pain he caused me) I cannot seem to get past the thought that he would love me more (choose me only) if I looked as his fantasy girls do.... an impossible dream, for I have aged and the body has changed from giving birth to my husbands three kids.

Oh - to be able to walk out of my house and not have an anxiety attack when I see a YOUTHFUL SLENDER BEAUTY - one that I know my husband would look at and possibly lust over if he was there to.... my inner fears will be the death of me.

I HATE FEELING as though I have been REPLACED, if only in my mind and in his eyes.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

P.S.
I do not believe he would ever cheat on Me..... he NEVER has in the 20 years we have been married - well physically that is, mentally is another thing all together.