I have to say that I'm still obsessed and I figured out what was going on with me was BPD a little over two years ago. I can't tell you how much money I've spent on books . . . I'm thinking of taking out stock in Amazon But you know what? It's helped. I really do understand the issues and the disorder now. And my understanding has helped me function more effectively when I enter the wild emotional storm. I'm not cured, but I am getting better at recognizing the triggers and realizing that I'm the kind of person who can't allow herself to go into emotional overload without suffering the consequences. Hang in there, Beautifuldisaster, the obession lessens a little . . . okay a smidge, but it does get better!