You're welcome Sun Dog. Yep, the person who told me about the free writing (stream of conciousness as you call it) told me, also, that if i can't think of anything to write, even write that! lol 'i can't think of anything to write, i can't think of anything..' because she said sometimes things will come on their own. And if they don't? oh well. I will try the mirror thing as well. Anything (unharmful) to keep these crappy feelings at bay is worth a try!