i will try again. once my divorce is final i think he will be asked to take cvare of some of the medical bills so they may get paid i just have thousands of dollars worth of medical bills, and no income, and thats besides my other bills. i'm no t even sure how to find a therapist evermind a good one that i trust. talking to someone about your feelings is hard enough, even if they are very close to you, and a complete stranger kinds scares me.. ok not kinda. REALLY scares me. and being so depressed, i dont want that to be a factor in my divorce. i want my children back. and am afraid if im seeking treatment for depression that might be bad for my case. i've been reading your posts dexter, i'm sorry you have trouble sleeping, thats an awful feeling especially when you are tired and can not sleep. tossing and turning and watching the clock. seems like all i want to do is sleep lately. wish i could give you some of mine. i know this is going to sound corny but have you tried meditation at all? it helps me to relax or used to. i havent been able to do it for a while. even guided meditaion tapes. you can always talk to me on here thats enough to put anyone to sleep. *smiles*
mystie