(((((((((((hugs safe)))))))))) please dont cry its going to be ok maybe not right this second but it will be ok. i have dissociative identity disorder and i am from alabama also and it has taken me years to come to terms with it i was dropping in and out of therapy because it would just be to much. i have recieved alot of good information and support on here im not asking you to read my post because it could be triggering but the replies to my post had alot of helpful tips and ideas to help. im still trying to reach a point with my diagnosis of acceptance and how to take care of myself and those inside who depend on me. i hope this is making sense. just hang in there and wait for the wise ones here to post they are full of knowledge understanding and support. i can be here also to help you with my limited tidbits cuz im learning also but i will be whatever it is you need from me "us" thank you for posting that was very brave and the first step toward being "ok" with what is happening inside