It's okay that you deleted the post, Swingbeatnik, but I just wanted to let you know that there's no way that you're "nothing". I really get how you might feel that way sometimes . . . or most of the time, but mental illness has a tendency to shake us to our core . . . . and that's a painful place to be. One thing I've come to realize over the years, is that I do exist and I am lovable and worth care and compassion . . . But I also know that keeping that belief alive every day, minute and second isn't always easy! Take care of yourself.