I had issues with this as a kid, and even then it ruined my entire life. Because of the sexual abuse I had horrible issues with having to feel like I had to pee and would want to get rid of it as quickly as possible. I also wet the bed a lot. I was the youngest in my family and got made fun of horribly for this and carried the embarrassment with me until recently when I was able to admit it to my therapist that it was like that growing up.

Lately within the last 6 months while working in trauma I have issues again with being able to hold it, because the very feeling of having to pee makes me panic. I am unsure of why though. As a kid I would get nervous just being naked at all, so I wondered if this was part of it.

TRIGGER::: I also questioned that while being raped as a child if it caused me to urinate, as it can happen in grown women since the bladder is right there and I unknowingly crossed the two.

I have yet to wet the bed at night since I was young. But every once in awhile if I get really nervous about having to pee I just go without trying. I haven't had the guts to tell my T though. He's a young male and I know he wouldn't judge me, but it's just uncomfortable to talk about. But thanks for bringing it up, because it's quite personal.